Death Sentence

No worries.  No drama here.

Just dreams.

I had a dream last night that I had a conversation with someone.  Someone who I have not talked with in a very long time, and someone who probably does not want to talk with me.  The conversation wasn’t really a conversation.  I said “I never hated you” and he didn’t say anything, that I recall.  But I woke up with the feeling that we had talked, or should talk.   That the dream was a conversation.

I discussed this with Husband after work.  He thinks one of us, from the dream,  has a message to get to the other one.  I just don’t know if it’s my message to him.  Or his message to me.

Or if it was just a dream.

And when I woke up, the words “death sentence”  were running through my head.  And they have continued.

All day.

Contemplation of these two words have filled my every thought not being occupied by pressing work matters.  Or every moment not pressed in to emotional connection with others through out the day.

Is the dream, and the waking thought, connected?

And my thoughts about “death sentence”?   Nothing morbid.  Well, some might think it is.  But it isn’t.  I mean aren’t we all given a death sentence when we are born?  Oh, quit freaking out on me.  I don’t mean that in a bad way.  I mean it in a realistic, we are born, we die, kind of way.  I don’t know of anyone that has evaded this.  Therefor it is not morbid.  It just is.

I don’t have a negative jittery feeling about this.  It just feels …. pressing.  Urgent?  Urgent, may be too strong a word.  Something I shouldn’t avoid?  But, I don’t know what it is I should or should not avoid.

Do our thoughts trigger our dreams.  Or do our dreams trigger our thoughts.  Or does one have nothing to do with the other.

Or should I have not eaten the chili last night?

And don’t I need to be grateful I can tell Husband I was dreaming about another guy last night?

19 thoughts on “Death Sentence

  1. Ok, here it goes.
    The man represents something you have been avoiding for a long time- you are now ready to confront it or accept it for what it is- Frued will say the man represents something sexual but I believe it is more of an idea more than anything else. Think about it… I would love to know. And don’t think you are going to find it hidden somewhere in your everyday life, it will Knock you over when you least expect it.

    You secretly lust over Harrison Ford and he …..
    Wait …. DB reads these doesn’t he

    Sorry DB! You da man



    • Master Flash, I will think about this. Something I’m ready to confront? I hope so. I will let you know. 😉 OR someone I’m lusting after? Well, if that is the case, I will let you know. But I’m not aware of that yet either! 🙂


  2. Dreams are a good indicator you are sleeping soundly of which I am jealous. And to be able to remember those dreams is even a greater plus. As you commented a short while ago on mediums and spirits, one can never truly know – but all you have is a gut feeling… Go with it… Was your dream connected to a real life event? Or was it something “summoning” you… Or are you just plain nuts?

    Don’t ask Hubby. 🙂


    • HAHAHA! So serious until that very last comment Koji! I should have seen that coming. 😉 Sleep is not easy for me. I do not often even remember dreaming, or specific dreams. I think I am trying to tell myself something, for sure. I just don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s as simple as actually saying “I never hated you.”


  3. Without going into details on your post, I have been having quite a number of bizarre dreams of late…when I rarely dream at all.

    Saying “I never hated you” while conscious may not be as lasting as if you dreamed it…but it is certainly better than “Death Sentence”. 🙂


    • I hear you about the dreams. Same here.

      I’m still not sure what the message is. Whether it’s to me, or for someone else. And I I have no clue what the ‘death sentence’ is. But I’m getting some good feedback on that.


  4. Wow! This is profound–powerful–moving! Maybe it’s not “death sentence” the way you’re taking it. But a sentence about a kind of death. “I never hated you” is a sentence–a simple sentence at that. “I hate you” is a kind of death sentence, while “I never hated you” is something else altogether, right? While it might not be love, it is at the very least a stay of execution.


    • Thank you Kathy! I love that interpretation. Just love it. A stay of execution. I mean, who, really, wants to be hated? I know I don’t.


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