If I Had Done What I Should Have

Having a day off in the middle of the week is a misnomer.  A ‘day off’ implies you aren’t working.   I don’t know about you but when I have a  “day off” it is full of shoulds.   I should clean.  I should do laundry.  I should cook.  I should finish that project or I should start that project.  I should paint the basement.  I should do everything that I don’t do when I am working.    A day off may imply I’m not going to the office.  But it never implies I don’t have something to work on.

I nearly did just that today.  I almost filled my day with work.  I almost talked myself out of taking advantage of a sunny and warm October day.  Because there was so much I should do.

One thing I am correct about, on a day like today, I should fill it with something I don’t do when I am working.   

So that’s exactly what I did.  I took one of my single speeds.  A protein bar and some oatmeal snack bars, home made I might add.  A couple of drinks.  And left the shoulds.   And grabbed hold of “I wanna”.

And look at what I would have missed if I had done what I should have.

Yes.

There is an incredible feeling I get by controlling my life, controlling my bike, making decisions that get me through my day.   The best way I possibly can.

Okay, I did do some laundry, I did clean some floors, I did cook a batch of stir fry, I did run on the treadmill, I did do some TKD practice, I did all of these things.   But only until I realized I didn’t want to fill my life with  things I wanted to do, but didn’t.   I don’t want to go to work tomorrow and sit at my desk looking at my computer and think I should have gone on a bike ride yesterday.

There is a difference between “shoulds” and “should haves”.