When I was a child I felt old. There was something unnatural about me being short, young, and having to sit in the child section of the world. I just felt older. On more than one occasion, as a teenager, I would be with my dad and people would mistake me for his wife. It never bothered me that people thought I was older than I was. I kind of felt like people who assumed that, must have sensed something about me to assume I was older.
Now that I’m physically older I don’t feel old at all.
If I felt old as a child wouldn’t I, shouldn’t I, feel prehistoric now?
Today at work my friend asked me how old I would be this year. When she said it out loud it kind of felt …. weird. What? How in the world will I be that old? She shook her head and said “you seem so young”.
She immediately earned ‘you’re my favorite’ status. It may carry over for a few days. Weeks.
I’m sure there’s a lesson to be had here. I just don’t know for sure what it is. I probably could have figured it out when I was ten and felt older. But now that I’m older and feel quite juvenile I seem to have lost some insight.
There is something unnatural to being this incredibly tall (however tall I want to be), feel as young as I feel, and have to sit in the adult section of the world.
I think I am trans-aged