Two Days Lost

I lost two days.

Wrapped in a comforter.

It shielded me from life.

And

It barred me from life.

Why is it I want to do more

When I can’t do anything.

Sick

It’s a horrible feeling.

Watching the world spin.

Without you.

How pitiful this sounds!

I just spent a dismalΒ three days.

And though I have never taken my health for granted-

It was a reinforcement to do better to take care of myself.

My heart felt compassion for those who are going through something worse.

46 thoughts on “Two Days Lost

  1. I hope you are feeling well soon. ❀ You, have described one of the parts which make up depression—I'm not saying that being sick is the same as being depressed–it's watching the world spin without you, wrapped in a comforter, barred from life. You have been fortunate to see a tiny glimpse through the eyes of depression——kind of. Am I making sense?

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    • April it totally makes sense. First, I am feeling better, thank you. πŸ™‚

      Second, though this is not exactly the same I did have a “bout” with depression. It was medically induced. I had a horrible reaction to a medication and later my doctor told me a side effect of this medication could be a “psychotic break”. I felt fortunate enough that that did not happen! But it did put me in to a horrible depression. I was fortunate that I knew it was medicine related. But it was truly truly horrible My compassion lies with anyone feeling like the world is spinning, and all that can be done is watch from the side lines.

      YOu are making complete sense to me.

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    • Ah, I know. For about 36 to 40 hours I really had no choice. I could not function. Much of that time is lost to me. I was truly out of it. I couldn’t read. eat. drink. watch tv. Nothing. When I finally started to feel better I looked outside and it hit me how life goes on even if we ….aren’t. Kind of startling. Even though I know it. It still startles you.

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  2. I am always a little bit off kilter, when under the weather. Colleen, you are missed, but we will be here rooting for your good health to be returned. I admire you mention that you know others live challenging lives and your dear heart goes out in compassion for them. Even while sick, you are giving to others. So you, Colleen. Perfectly you.

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  3. I hope you feel better soon, CM. It’s not always easy to listen to what the body wants us to do. I’m glad you took the time to listen and to do what needed to be done. πŸ™‚

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    • Oh Robin, it’s “funny” now. But I really didn’t have a choice but to listen at this point. I was nearly comatose!!!! I could not have done anything other than what I did for two days…..which was nothing. It took effort to drink water. πŸ™‚ But I feel much better, thank you. πŸ˜‰

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