I asked her, in her eighth decade of life “do you believe in Santa Claus?”
And she, in her eighth decade of life, replied “I mostly do”.
And I wasn’t quite sure what to make of that.
I heard ‘doubt’ in the answer.
If we replace “Santa Claus” with a number of other persons or things to believe in, and the answer remains the same, it defines doubt.
And that kind of made me sad.
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It is sad but she “mostly” does so maybe something will happen to make her believe for “sure.” 🙂
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she is afraid to fully believe for fear of being proven wrong, i think.
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what if…the idea of a right and a wrong, in a believing ought to be flushed, there really is NO fully anything 🙂 well, maybe dead
Fear is the lie that stops belief, fear for me is at issue entirely by itself. One is not the opposite of the other.
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Hard not to be cynical after living on the planet for 80 plus years I think. Sad but true.
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I s’pose. I don’t think she meant to sound cynical at all. Actually, I felt it an innocent and truthful comment. I caught her off guard for sure. I wonder when the last time was someone asked her if she believed in Santa!
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I’m sure it’s been a while!
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No one’s asked me and I’m decades younger than she. 😉
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Good point!
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‘Mostly’ believing isn’t bad. I feel the same way and I don’t believe it’s sad. ❤
Merry Christmas, Colleen, to you and all your family,blood and otherwise. ❤
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Merry Christmas Tess!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤
Thank you for telling me that, it actually makes me look at this a little different.
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Same to you, Colleen–double. ❤ ❤
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Don’t be sad, Chatter Master. That’s eight decades of wisdom, too, be it right or wrong. The best lessons I learned came out of Old Man Jack’s salty as a sailor’s mouth…
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😀 Thank you Koji. Reading these comments makes me look at it a little bit different.
That salty sailor….he had some great wisdoms too. Maybe mostly believing isn’t so bad.
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Well, sometimes we can be surprised and gave a change of heart on a spur of the moment. A bit sad though. Life is at times more about conquering our own self doubt. It may have been an off day for her. I hope the festivities of the time lift her spirits all the same. To be sad this time of year is the worst.
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Well, I hope I didn’t paint her as sad. I think it may have been an honest, but ‘okay’ answer. I really caught her off guard. And it didn’t feel sad coming from her. It felt sad when I thought about it. If that makes sense…..
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It does she was more matter of fact in the moment and the deeper layers upon later reflection can be sad. I think that is it?? Still, I wonder a similar thought of how I will see life when I am that old.
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I do the same thing Niaaeryn…wonder how I will look back at now. My job keeps me so aware of NOW because when I get there, I want to look back with joy and as few regrets as possible. I wonder about their lives and youths and experiences. Working with the elderly, keeps me young.
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Working with the young reminds me that I am older…and now I sound like them sometimes…so I am young still I suppose. 🙂
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I believe in the whole “she – bang,” Colleen. I have told the grandies there must be a Santa! Hope we keep the magic of childhood dreams forever!! ♡♡
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I do too Robin! I do too.
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A bit uncertain and yes a wee bit of doubt but she’s lived 80 yrs and still chooses to “mostly believe.” while it is a little sad, I can’t help but think the belief far outweighs the doubt.
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I think I will look at it like this MM, thank you. 🙂
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