Not Quite Ever

Thoughts and emotions

Don’t always form words.

Words don’t always make sense.

Sense cannot always be found.

But something comes

From the constant searching

To understand.

It may not be what was sought,

It may not make any sense,

What is found

May be unexpected.

 Once found-

Is a bridge to accepting.

Paralleled to understanding.

Though,

Not quite ever….

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I wanted to write but I ended up doodling this because words didn’t help.

This didn’t express what I was trying to think through.

But it helped me, the process of it, to get through a powerful moment.

I can look at it and know what it represents.

It holds a tremendous amount of emotion, questions and unformed thoughts.

I didn’t expect that.

Sometimes there are no answers.

Just a journey to acceptance.

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33 thoughts on “Not Quite Ever

  1. Ann Koplow says:

    I expect the unexpected with you. And I always learn a lot.

  2. Beautiful flower! I think it is terrific that you doodled a flower while trying to form thoughts in your mind. I think your subconscience is trying to tell you something! 🙂

  3. tric says:

    Sometimes our thoughts, like our writing, take their own road. I hope you find your other answer too.

  4. ksbeth says:

    emotions present themselves in myriad ways –

  5. Sometimes just the process of being creative can be therapeutic…and I love what you created!

  6. April says:

    A terrific was to work through what is on your mind that you don’t have words for. I do that with my knitting.

    • It’s something, isn’t it April? To be able to watch our fingers ‘do’ something that we don’t necessarily have to think about. And yet, it helps our thoughts. Maybe not corral them, but maybe calm them, or just settle them some.

  7. I really like this. -TJ

  8. Val Boyko says:

    This is really beautiful Colleen. Thank you for finding your expression here. I too find it hard with words sometimes. xo

  9. russtowne says:

    I found this post to be especially profound. It offers much wisdom and understanding in a relatively few words. I can’t say it was unexpected (I’ve been reading your blog to long for that.) But it was, as is so often the case when I read your creations, a thought-provoking, insightful, and enjoyable experience.

    • Thank you Russ. This was written while thinking of and hurting with, people I love. I appreciate your lovely words, I hope these words may help someone else at a time when they need them.

  10. russtowne says:

    Reblogged this on A Grateful Man and commented:
    I found this post to be especially profound. It offers much wisdom and understanding in a relatively few words. I can’t say it was unexpected (I’ve been reading Colleen’s blog too long for that.) But it was, as is so often the case when I read her creations, a thought-provoking, insightful, and enjoyable experience.

  11. niaaeryn says:

    Well said and unsaid 🙂 I love the flower, and yes, acceptance is at times the only answer really…especially when we do not want it to be.

  12. Anonymous says:

    Awesome sauce! Ok, that really didn’t convey what I was thinking, but speaks to my altered thought process as a result of hanging out with preschoolers for 5 days!!!

  13. Debra says:

    Sometimes we just can’t access what we know is right there just waiting for us to discover. And sometimes words can actually get in the way, in my experience. Let it all unfold, and it will come to you and not disappoint. 🙂

    • Thank you Debra. Sometimes I think the acceptance is all we’re going to get because even with answers there isn’t always understanding. And I agree with you completely, sometimes the words do just get in the way and clutter stuff up.

  14. Heartafire says:

    Lovely article and art. Thank you Colleen

  15. reocochran says:

    It is best leaving things unspoken at times. The pretty poinsettia flower seems like a nice place to leave your thoughts and lose yourself. Nature is a part of your comfort zone, Colleen. (My escapes are often art and nature.)

  16. this is so meaningful and yes so true, sometimes there just aren’t answers!

  17. Gibber says:

    It’s beautiful but sorry there’s pain in it.

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