A Never Happened Existence

I imagine…

When I imagine

Different life paths

I am sure I would have found the mountains

And Galway Bay leading across the ocean to the rock island

I am sure I would have found the desire

To explore

And create.

And that I am responsible 

For all that I am…or all that I am not.

I can generate what if’s and what abouts

and illustrate a never happened  existence.

I imagine the things I would have valued and learned to value

And the lessons I would have learned, and been part of teaching.

I imagine getting to where I am now

by different routes and crossways.

But what I cannot do

Is imagine my now-

The lessons learned, my values known, what makes my heart beat,

Not existing.