I Hide

I don’t know about you.

But sometimes I hide.

Behind myself.

Behind Myself

I hide behind my anger.

I hide behind my arrogance.

I hide behind my fear.

I hide behind my righteousness.

I hide behind  my resentment.

I hide behind false bravado.

I hide.

But I can’t hide forever.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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52 thoughts on “I Hide

  1. KSAK says:

    How True……”You can run, but you can never hide”…….well written…..

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  2. Mvadi says:

    That was so honest and relatable. I feel like most of hide behind different masks because we fear vulnerability and showing people our weaknesses. I suppose it works for a while but you’ve rightly pointed out that you can’t hide forever.

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    • I have recognized many of my masks. Though I didn’t always see it as such, looking back, I can see it more clearly. I think you said it perfectly when you said we fear our vulnerability and showing people our weakness. I have always struggled with that.

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      • Mvadi says:

        I saw my masks very early on, but I agree that it takes time and experience to become self-aware and introspective. I can confidently say that that is the issue for most of us. I guess it was an issue for me personally because I craved deep and meaningful connection and understanding, but I didn’t get it. After numerous attempts at trying to connect with people in the way that I wanted to, I just gave up and focused on achieving my own goals and making myself and my life as fulfilling and great as I possibly could. In the end, you’re all you’ve got, and really all you need. At least that’s what I believe. Cheers

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        • Mvadi, thank you for such an insightful comment about your existence. I hope in focusing on your goals and seeking fulfillment you have found much success with that. I think a person who has sought and worked for fulfillment has created a wonderful life. That is something to see in others, and is inspiring.

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          • Mvadi says:

            The pleasure’s mine entirely, and I’d like to thank you for your honest and heartfelt work. I can confidently say that I have been quite successful doing just that, but I still have a long way to go, and I will continue to grow and improve as much as I can. I too think fulfilment is extremely important and simple, just not the easiest thing to achieve at times. I hope that people can strive to be fulfilled in terms of everything they do, because I feel like just that could change their lives entirely.

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      • anie says:

        This is hard…and very interresting, because for me it worked always the other way round…I feel that people care more about me and are more connected with me, when I show my weakness. I can imagine for them this us a feeling of being honest or being still a child, when I show weakness. If people hide a lot it‘s like a hidden wall around them, you cannot see it but feel… so people maybe some people feel the fear behind, but most people will just feel hiding something, what can trigger lots of prejudice… but I agree, that showing weakness can be a big risk, if there are mean-spirited people around!

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    • anie says:

      no and it will not work, because we/ you / I seek for other people getting near to you ( o.k. at least I seek for this)
      And may be you notice that your efforts to keep people at a distance ( because of fear) only give birth to misunderstandings. Misunderstandings that are painful and cause suffering and pain that is not necessary and will destroy everything you have built up. The cruel, but probably realistic truth is … decide and react, be brave and try your best …everyboy..or keep crying or see others crying until the end comes.

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      • Mvadi says:

        You’re right.
        I guess I did yearn for love and understanding from people as well but I just don’t expect to get it anymore. That doesn’t feel natural and right, but it’s working for me in the short term.
        Agreed. I think you elucidated the truth of the matter right there. I do find that when I hide, I end up hurting the people I care about. But I’m bitter and I need to consider what it is that is good for me at that particular time. Right now, it’s staying away from people and not getting too close.
        I hope I can change my attitude because I know deep down that it’s not getting me very far in life and as you pointed out, I too want people to be close to me because it’s only human to want that.
        Thank you for the advice. That’s just what I needed to hear at this time.

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        • anie says:

          Ohh I am sorry for this feeling! And I wish you all the best to meet as soon as possible the person who fullfill your life!!!

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        • anie says:

          I can only write what I think I feel. Giving an advice would be presumptuous, because only You can exactly know what you feel like in your situation. I just firmly believe that there is a partner for every person and also people close to him who bring understanding and love into live.

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  3. ivor20 says:

    I know what you mean
    Now I’m too old to run
    I’ve nowhere to hide
    These days, what you see, is me

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  4. anie says:

    everybody try to hide sometime to protect, no?
    Do I hide behind anger,arrogance,righteousness…? If this mean I show anger, arrogance…to hide my vulnerable feelings/ emotions, I guess yes!
    Your illustration is great…you can copy your face 100times and just add a matching mouth to the actually shape of mood!

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    • Yes, I think it is to hide our vulnerabilities Anie. 🙂 And thank you about the drawing!! I usually don’t draw a mouth in my drawings….and when I do, it doesn’t feel right to me. That bottom line is supposed to be the edge of my face (though many people think it is a smile).

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      • anie says:

        Thank you Colleen! I never saw this bottom line as a smile. I ever knew that you do not want to irritate or influence people with a smiling or sad mouth… this is exactly what we do so often allday long… 🙂….so but than it is more hiding behind a mask? Not behind anger, arrogance…?

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        • 🙂 Well, I don’t think it is hiding behind a mask. Though your comment is VERY wise, I don’t think I was hiding because….. When I started drawing my little figure I didn’t know HOW to draw a smile! (LOL) And now, I actually prefer that I don’t attempt drawing a mouth because I like the look … I’ve come to see this way I draw as a non influencing look, so how I appear does not influence how someone else sees me. 😉

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  5. Jodi says:

    Yes. Me too sometimes.

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  6. markbialczak says:

    Really, though, all of these parts make up you, MBC. It’s not hiding, really. It’s taking time to get to where you want to be.

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  7. You are speaking for most of us! Certainly you are speaking for me! 🙂

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  8. Debra says:

    I guess we can continue to hide, but it’s not much of a life if we are that “underground” with who we are. So true, Colleen.

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    • I am sure I will ‘hide’ again. And possibly not even recognize I’m doing it. But I think I am becoming more aware and finding my truths much easier than the masks. Thank you Debra. 🙂

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  9. So humbling to read and your last sentence is assuring and empowering.

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  10. blindzanygirl says:

    Lol me too

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  11. lbeth1950 says:

    You always nail it!

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