Some truths that should be included about my life:
I yelled at my husband and I yelled at my kids.
Sometimes I thought I was better than others, sometimes I knew I wasn’t as good as anyone.
I lied and was dishonest.
I lamented all that I didn’t have and arrogantly thought I deserved more.
I doubted my purpose.
I lacked courage to reach goals.
I let hate touch my life.
I practiced selfishness to an embarrassing degree.
I acted righteous when I should have been pleading forgiveness.
I refused to admit when I was wrong.
I was clueless.
And:
I did my very best to be a better mother and a better wife.
Sometimes I was able to accept that I was as valuable as anyone, everyone.
I was truthful and honest even when it pained me to do so.
I learned that my purpose was flexible and fluid.
I basked in achieving goals I worked damn hard to obtain.
I learned that hate had no place in my heart and shunned it to the best of my ability.
I gave of myself in ways that helped others beyond what I thought I was capable of doing.
I learned the truth of value and morality and chose to seek it and live it.
I came to understand that being wrong is not a shame.
I loved learning.
The truth of my life is all that needs written.
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PS….a very very long time from now!
We learn new every day, if we are open-minded Colleen. You have looked through your life and learned so much. Inspiration for me too π
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I think this blog has helped me with this Irene. I make it a focus to pay attention to my every day so I can learn from it, then put something here. Here’s to both of us being inspired π
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All of this, and more, is why I like you.
And you know it.
And you know it is genuine.
You first caught me with your so original expressions of irony, done so sweetly, with sketches, it wouldn’t seem to be ironic.
But of course.
It was.
You are a unusually creative person.
And I did worry, I was bugging you.
Commenting always, on most every post.
You just keep going girl!
And I will keep reading.
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Cindy…this is one of my most favorite ever comments. β€ of course I don't mind…you never bug me. π I appreciate your encouragement and lifting me up. Sometimes I just need to hear (read) that! I keep rereading your comment and can't find enough ways to thank you.
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The only part of your obituary I’ll be reading, is the second piece after, And……. , the first part, is only the learning curve supplement
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I chuckled at the learning curve supplement ! And thank you dear Ivor for focusing on the second part. You are right, that first part was all about learning to get to the second part.
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Yes your obituary would be similar to mine (twins), a learning curve supplement, followed by… And….. ππ€β₯οΈ
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And. And. And. π π₯°
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and all of this means that you are an amazing human being, having learned so many lessons, grown so much, and taught them to others.
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You are so kind Beth. Thank you. I have a long way to go to reach the level I hope to achieve in life and goodness.
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Baby steps
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The best kind.
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Sometimes thatβs all we have and that is okay.
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Beautiful words to come in the far future, MBC.
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Thank you MBM, I’m grateful for the “far future” tag ! π
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what a list! A life’s work for a person who has as much inner passion as you, because learning will never stop!
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Thank you Anie. Learning is life isn’t it?
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For sure and life is learning, …it is just not so obvious as long as there is no trigger to ask yourself the question βwhy, are things going this way and why not in a different wayβ… most of my life, I learned without the conscience… like a child….
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Child learning is fantastic. Curiosity. Questions. Feedback. That’s the way to do it.
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That’s why it is so wonderfully refreshing to listen to children. It’s like as they are living in a sheltered dream world …. it’s hard to keep this world alive today for the future children, but the path is more or less the same for all humans. We develop an awareness of our environment and our own fears and weaknesses, that prevent us from further learning what is significant.
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How beautifully transparent, Colleen. I admire you so much for that. I will strive to follow your example.
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Thank you Chuck. Transparency comes from an ever increasing awareness that ‘here’ I may not always appear authentic.
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I love the perspective. I used to think better or worse than others but my husband taught me when I first met him that – I’ll never be better than anyone but no one will ever be better than me. When he said it, I thought this guy is wise and needs a second date.
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Yes he did (need a second date!). I have learned to not be ashamed or embarrassed by what I didn’t know and needed to experience. It’s humbling to think of how I have grown.
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I agree, and still how far we ca go.
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We’re all works in progress!
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AMEN BCM, and I’m ever so glad I don’t get stale!
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I think you graduated with honours already. Don’t go up to collect the certificate just yet!
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I think I shall meander away from picking that certificate up. It’ll wait. π
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You are the real deal. Honest. Funny. Brilliant. Loving. Kind. Upfront. Deep. Insightful. Creative. Secure. Loyal. Responsible. And the most incredibly unique artist I think I have the privilege to call friend. LOVED THIS POST! Yippee!
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So….everyone is piling on such amazing kindness today. This is a mind blowing comment AmyRose! Thank you!!!!!! I feel SO privileged to have you in my corner. THANK YOU my friend. π
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VERY welcome! π
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Woohoo! I appreciate you and your imperfections π
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THANK YOU VAL !
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Sounds about right for most of us if we take a look across the decades! I don’t know about you, but I often feel that some of my “worst moments” fall as subheadings under the “clueless” category. There were times when I can just say I didn’t have a clue! Wish I could make amends on some of those things. π¦
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YES! My worst and my clueless seem to travel well together. Fortunately, my ‘willing to learn’ travels well also ! π .
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None of us are perfect. Being honest with one self and learning from our errors is what is import as nt.
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It would be a tragedy to not learn from those mistakes.
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Very much like me really and I still love learning now. We never end learning.
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Learning is living.
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Once again, we are reminded to live each day to the fullest!
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Amen TaylorMitch !
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