I received a pretty huge rejection this week. I was naive enough, brave enough, hopeful enough to think…it could happen. It didn’t. That moment of reality where the crush reaches just inside of your chest to put the squeeze on and tells you….you aren’t good enough…is pretty rough. Then that lingering aftertaste of you shouldn’t be doing this just hangs out in the corner of your mind, quietly but noticeably mocking you. Even while you answer that never ending craving to create.
Today my naivety, my courage and my hope are still winning.
A little more battered, but still standing.
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I understand. Some of the greatest talents to walk this earth faced rejection before acclaim. So glad your hope is winning. You’re an amazingly talented woman. ❤️
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You have always been amazingly supportive. Thank you Paulette ❤️.
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When you create, it’s your progeny. You protect it. That is a normal feeling for me and it’s personal to everyone. I’d like to be the mother of dragons, but jelly beans are all I’ve produced so far. Your work is your pleasure. For those who reject it, oh well. You are perfect. We enjoy you. Carry on.
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You make me laugh MW51. 🙂 thank you. I did fear putting this out there would seem …pouty. It’s just the truth of the process of it all. Thank you for your kindness.
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Rejection is all around us. It hurts but once we look deeper sometimes it’s just that they aren’t ready for you. Btw I am nominating you for an award soon!
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Thank you Chocoviv. I think I will use that as my mantra today. They. Are not ready. For me. 😁
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You’re welcome 😉
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You are brilliant and unique. If anyone doesn’t appreciate that, their vision is more limited than yours.
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Thank you Cindy. Maybe they can borrow my 👓 😊
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The things you create are beautiful. Keep standing!!!
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Thank you VERY much! 🙂 Still on my feet !!
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I think these are universal fears, and as we live life a bit, while still hard, we find a bit of perspective, and find a bit of relief in how we deal with it.
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I was not feeling great so much when I wrote this. But once I wrote this I felt relief. Thank you Beth.
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I don’t think you’re amazing, MBC, I know you’re amazing. You’re creative way is just ahead of some people’s curve. Keep on!
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Thank you so much MBM. Even though I ‘expect’ rejection as part of all of this….it still sometimes hits harder than other times. Thank you for the always there support dear friend.
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I don’t know you but what I read here tells me you are a very good writer. And I hear what you’re saying… That is my my “Truth” too. Not as a writer (I know I’m not there yet!) but in other areas where I know I am good, but… I fear… Keep “winning.” Keep going.
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Thank you so much Joycee. I know this is part of the process. But…some of them hit harder than others. I think with this one it is so hard because I really felt it was happening. And I really believe in it. Thank you for understanding and sharing.
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That is their loss Colleen, not yours!
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Thank you dear Peter!!!!!! 🙂
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To face the possibility of rejection and put yourself out there anyway is extremely brave! You have absolutely NOTHING to be ashamed of and deserve all the kudos in the world. I am very proud of you and all of your creative efforts!
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Patrick, thank you. I do keep telling myself this. A LOT. 🙂 I love you.
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I send you the biggest, most healing hug, and wish I could sit across a table and share some tea and just listen to you, Colleen. Nothing I have to say would take away from the hurt that comes with a big rejection, but I hope that knowing how much I admire you, and how kindness and talent and generosity I see in you, will at least fill a little of that void. Thank you for being so willing to share your vulnerability with us. That is a brave act! But you strengthen us…I go back to your generosity and kindness. See? An example! 🙂 We’ve all been where you are in some way. It can sure knock you off your feet, at least for a bit of time. You are special. I mean that!
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Debra, when I wrote this I doubted I ‘should’. I wanted to be truthful but I didn’t want to appear vulnerable (though I was). And I am every time I hit publish or tell people I wrote something or doodled something. That is the hardest part…sharing it. Though I want to share it….it comes at a cost. And like you said, in some way, most everyone experiences that. I thank you, from my very tender vulnerability that I really do all I can to protect. I am very glad that this time, I did not. The kindness, understanding, and thoughtfulness that others have expressed to me has been that very cup of tea. Thank you Debra. I am sitting at my little lap table/desk (made due to a leg injury!) and imagining you sitting there with a pot of tea between us. Some day, I hope for that real tea. ❤️
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Look to every successful (now) celebrated writer. Remember Stephen King and the huge nails he had in the wall with each rejection? And Louise Penny. And J.K. Rowling and and and Colleen?? You rock and you got this!!
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You are the best Number One 🙂 Thank you Chris. 🙂
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I’ve experienced that too. And having read that other people have the same feelings helps.
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Right? NOt that we want others to experience that, but if it is more ‘common’ we feel less….less than.
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Hmmm. Food for thought. Is it better to know that we’re not alone in our feelings, or does it take away from our experience when we know we’re not unique in it?
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I think the uniqueness is not diminished. Just my initial opinion and reaction to the question. Even knowing others have experienced this…our perceptions/work/efforts/personalities/needs/wants are all so different. That is just a rush reaction to this fantastic question.
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I actually found comfort in knowing my feelings are shared. I didn’t, personally, want to feel alone in that reaction. Comfort in communion and all that. But I could see how a person might feel the other way about it.
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Yes, I think it is ‘easy’ enough to contemplate that there are so many ways to feel about it. We shall contemplate on this some more!
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Okay, but I need coffee first… 🙂
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Deal!
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