I would have just quietly disappeared. Perhaps become a reclusive writer. Writing in my cabin or out by the fire pit. Maybe under a different name. Or maybe just keep everything private. Never to be heard from again. One day someone might think…’hey, whatever happened to…’. Maybe they would do a quick internet search to see if they could find me. Or. Maybe someone who knows me will ask ‘hey, are you still writing?’ and I’ll just shrug and avoid answering. Maybe these things will never happen. But anyway, I feel a connection to some who would be concerned if I disappeared quietly without a word. So here’s my word…goodbye. I want to thank anyone who has read my work, liked it, commented on it, been touched by it or even bothered by it. I am only half done as a writer if I didn’t have you folks reading. You completed this circle for me. And I am grateful for the feedback, the encouragement and the friendship.
All is well with me. There is nothing drastic to report. It’s just time. I need to redirect my energies. Or redefine them. I believe I am meant to write. I feel I have written some stellar work. And I know some of my work was mediocre at best. And truthfully some of it was not worth your time to read. A few years ago I wouldn’t have had the courage to say any of that in my head, out loud, or in writing where others may read it. But here I am. Partly because of this blog and the community I have found here. I’ve come to the realization that I am a better writer than some would ever recognize and I’m not as good a writer as I think I am. Which leaves room for improvement. Always.
The time I put into this blog is overwhelming when I look back and think about it. Could I be doing better things? Greater things? The greatest of things, of course, is helping others, making change, making a difference. I struggle to believe that I am doing that here.
I started this blog in 2009. I had ‘grand’ ideas (possibly grandiose!) of where it would lead me. It didn’t. But it did lead me to places I wouldn’t have gone and more importantly, to people that I never would have otherwise met. Virtually and/or in person. My goals with this blog were always to better my writing, get exposure, and as I moved along, creating in other formats. I think I met some of those goals, enough that it kept me going for awhile. But mostly, it was the connection with others that brought me along this far.
I want to thank all of you, present and past, who read my words. Laughed with me. Encouraged me. Inspired me. Talked with me here or through private messages. You made me feel like a writer. You befriended me. I looked forward to your creations and your kindness.
I wish everyone peace and wellness. Now and in the coming new year. God bless.
“If you have the words there’s always a chance that you’ll find the way”.
-Seamus Heaney
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Wish you the best ❤️ Thank you for always sharing ❤️
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Thank you 🙂
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You are a writer. It has been such a pleasure reading your words over the past years. Thank you, Colleen. ❤️. Best always.
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Thank you for being here with me 1J1 🙂
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Your “Goodbye” message is both heartfelt and heartwarming … I shall miss our friendly and sometimes lengthy chats!! … thank you dear Colleen for your encouragement and the wonderful support of my poems over the five and a half years of our WordPress friendship … your writings have been an inspiration to us all 🤗😍🌏😥
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Thank you Ivor. For everything (including this clip!). And we all have email my friend. 🙂
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The power of the pen 🤗🌏😍✍️
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On occasion You have entertained, challenged, amused, educated, inspired, angered , gobsmacked or befuddled us. You have done your job. Thanks.
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Well I can’t wait to see you to see which of my posts angered you 😂
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What a beautiful message! I only recently found my way to you and think your work is amazing. I hope that somewhere down the line I find out what this next chapter brings for you because your wisdom is deep and inspiring. Sending good wishes and blessings!
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Thank you very much Wynne. I have struggled with this for sometime now. There is so much ‘good’ here. But it was time. I send you the same good wishes and blessings.
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Ce fut un réel plaisir de vous lire et je dirai que si votre bien être est maintenant ailleurs et bien je vous souhaite le meilleur. Bien amicalement 🙂
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Merci Gyslaine. J’apprécie ta gentillesse et ta poésie. Je trouverai peut-être ce que je cherche. Et partagez-le un jour.
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Quoiqu’il en soit, je vous souhaite une future bonne année et la réalisation de vos souhaits et projets 🙂
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Merci beaucoup! Et à toi je souhaite la même chose 🙂
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You have touched me, Colleen. With this post. With earlier posts. In reaching out to me. In open in so many wonderfully human ways. Your goodbye here seems more like a bridge than a goodbye. I look forward to seeing you on the other side. Happy New Year. ❤️ Paulette
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Thank you Paulette. For your support and encouragement and YOUR reaching out to me. Your kindness was always a balm to my heart and soul. ❤
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you are, and have always been, a writer. it is you and it is your heart. I feel so lucky to have gotten to know you over the years through this blog, and am made better by that. yes, you were clearly born to write and you are feeling like it’s time to spread your wings, so understandable. I wish you many years of beautiful flight. while I will miss your frequent posts, I am happy to read you’ll be following what you were meant to do all along, and now you are ready. keep in touch when you can, and if not, I’ll know you are happily writing somewhere out there. best, beth
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Thank you Beth. I love the vision you just created with your words. I still hold on to the hope that we will meet in Ireland with our friend Tric. I love your positive vibe and am grateful we connected through our words. ❤
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so glad it resonated with you, and yes, I’d love to do that too –
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Oh Colleen, I shall miss your words, your drawings, and being able to accompany you on your journeys. Fare well my lovely lady. I know that you will be safe with your lovely hairy life companion and we shall be able to revisit your past words and journeys often in our minds. If you are going to be reading blogs still you will soon have the pleasure of learning of my dream of being a “Saggar Makers Bottom Knocker”. Now, isn’t that something to aspire to? God Bless, good health, and travel well. Peter.
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First, “your lovely hairy life companion” made me laugh. You nailed that!
Second, thank you Peter. For your support and encouragement and positive energy. It’s what I seek in life. And boy I found it here.
Third, I will definitely be around and canNOT wait to find out what “Saggar Makers Bottom Knocker” is all about!
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Your words, as always, are a lovely addition to my day!
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Awwwww. 🙂
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Thank you for making my world, our world, a better place. Your words and your heart are big, bold and courageous, My Buddy Colleen.
Thank you, again. I can’t say it enough for the thousands, yes, thousands of days your presence here has made me think, smile, react.
Godspeed.
Never goodbye. So long. ‘Til the next time comes upon us.
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My Buddy Mark. We have “been together” for so long! Never goodbye indeed. I will be about. I can’t just leave my friends. 🙂 Thank you for always being so positive and uplifting. I will see you at ‘your place’ (blog). 🙂
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Happy 2023 My Buddy Colleen. May it bring you and your family great joys!!
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you are a writer. you have challenged and inspired me. While i will greatly miss your blog, i wish you well on your future journey and hope i am able to read your work on some platform in the future.
Best of luck.
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Thank you for such kindness. I hope, like you, that my work will be worthy enough to share in the future in some manner. 🙂
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I’m sad to see the end of my daily read. You have been a source of joy for many, Colleen! I understand that life takes us in different directions, however, and we need to be open to where those paths lead. Thank you for all the joy you’ve allowed me to share from your drawings, writing, and overall ability to pull us together with your posts. Hugs to you my friend – I’ll still be watching for what comes next for you!
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Sheri, thank you SO very much for everything. You have been a source of joy and support for so long. I hope my future holds something to share with others again. Hugs returned. And I’ll see you on FB. 🙂
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I will be looking for you there!
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I believe you have more to say and hope you will keep this site active to express yourself when you feel the urge or need, whether it’s through words or your clever drawings.
Please consider just taking a step back instead of stopping altogether.
Love you, sister!
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❤ thank you Patrick. I am so thankful you read 'me'. I'm hoping this step back does get me to a place where I am creating 'better'. I love you.
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Maybe that’s it. Make it more of a “when you’re in the mood “ thing instead of feeling obligated to produce something every day because you feel like you’re “on deadline.”
In any event, I believe you have some more to say/express and will find a medium to do just that.
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❤️💚🤍🧡
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You are an amazing writer, Coleen and I am sad to see you go from blogging. Yet there is something else out there waiting for you to be accomplished.
I loved your writing, it insired me, it really made me think – outside the box too- I specially loved your drawings going with it. I treasure our friendship and I know I can always find you on Amazon through your books. Maybe one day you come back to this blog and say hi again.
Wishing you the best for your next adventure.
All the best and big hugs, you made a big difference to many of us. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Ute xxx
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Ute, thank you so much for these heart touching words! The things I hoped to do with this blog were fulfilled I believe, when I read things like this. I will ‘be around’ here. And I will still be reading you and others blogs. I really can’t say how much you have meant to me. ❤
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Thank you for being an inspiration for years as chattermaster sharing witty art and wisdoms with us. The great thing about writing is there are always new directions to explore.
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Thank you Eric. I have to admit I’m jumping without knowing where I will be landing. But I knew if I didn’t jump, I would not explore.
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Thank you for a great run! I’ve loved reading your posts over the years, but yes, blogging takes a lot of time. I’m so glad I was able to meet you and David (years ago now!) and we’ve been good friends for a long time.
It will be fun to see what (if anything) you do next. You have many talents and interests! And you’re at a place of your life where it’s time to do what you want, when you want.
Love you –
Nancy
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Thank you Nancy 🙂 I am so grateful to have met you (here and at dinner). Thank you for the support and encouragement. I just feel I am being pulled towards doing something new. I hope I find it. And we’ll see each other on FB! ❤ I love you.
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Thanks for the good years! its been a great run and have enjoyed your work.
To watch you grow as a writer and in your art has been truly impressive.
Thanks again for letting us be on this journey with you and will be looking forward to see what you do next. 😁
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Squirtle92….you have been the most supportive. Calling me on my own doubts and worries. Thank you. For everything. ❤
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Dear Colleen – I will surely miss you!!! I understand and fully support your choice but please do know your writing meant a lot to many of us and it is sad to read that there will be no more. I wish you all the best – finding your peace most of all, love from Poland Anya
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Thank you Anya. This meant a lot to me. I am a doubt-ponderer for sure. When I wasn’t sure if I should keep going here, I did because of feedback from you and others. I hope to find what it is I’m looking for. And I hope I do it with honor. ❤
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I am sure you will!!! ❤️
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I don’t know how long I’ve followed you but it feels like I just found you. Thank you for saying goodbye. Hopefully this blog may remain up for a time and I can go back and catch up knowing you’re off to doing the stuff you want to do instead of that big mystery that happens when folks vanish here in the ‘net.
Thank you for writing. Take care out there.
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Thank you Jessie. I do plan on keeping the blog here. Like you, I’ve missed those who have disappeared, and worried about them. I didn’t want to just up and go. I wish you the best. 🙂
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I am blessed to have you as my first WP contact. I have become rather addicted to you and your words, but I also know you need unencumbered time to give your best to your dream. Fly! Create! Be!! and THANK YOU MY FRIEND!!
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Oh my gosh Chris! I STILL remember that first winter sitting here while you were in Canada and trying to figure out what we were doing 😂 Thank you for support from the beginning. I hope I fly well and true. Thank you for being my friend (I hope you hear a song in that!). And I will be seeing you around. 🙂 ❤
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You don’t need it but GOOD LUCK may your pen never run dry!
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What a beautiful wish. 🙂 Thank you ❤
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Will you leave your posts up on WP?
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Yes, I plan to for now.
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oh good!! Thanks!!
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You’re welcome. Thank you for wanting me to 🙂
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Oh, Colleen. I’ve been taking so much time off myself that it hurts to see that you are leaving us. To say I’ll miss you is an understatement. I guess we always think everyone will continue to do the same things forever, but I’ve noticed a lot of the old crowd has stopped. You are right about it taking so much time. And I should leave as well, but there are still a few things I should say to people, so I’ll keep on keeping on as long as the words will come.
Happy New Year my friend.
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Thank you dear Angie. It was not an easy decision. But I think it was time. I will see you around still. 🙂 Happy New Year dear friend.
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I have made that decision before and after a hiatus come back. It always helps to get away, step back sand explore other options before committing yourself to one single coarse; In my case I have been writing a book, but now am working on getting some help for people stuck in assisted living places. It should be illegal, but unfortunately in the state of Kentucky not much is considered illegal. It’s a good thing I’m so stubborn! Maybe.
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It is a very good thing you are so stubborn Angie. I look forward to your book. AND your advocating!!!
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It has always been a treat reading you words and enjoying your humor! Good luck with the unfolding in the New Year ❣️✨🎈
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Thank you very much Val. Happy New Year! ❤️
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Oh no, Colleen! How terribly sad to see you go. I always always always glean something important and beautiful and worthwhile from your writing. I think you’re a wonderful writer, and I hope to see your writing more recognised in the world. I will really miss seeing your familiar icon on my Reader page 😦 I wish you the very very very best of luck with all your writing endeavours. You truly deserve it. Your writing has a special kind of warmth and life that you really do not see anymore. So so sad to see you leave the blogging hemisphere. Take care. You will be sorely missed!
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Lenora (please know OB is my nickname for you that I use with fondness but your beautiful comment made me want to pay honor and let you know I do know your name 🙂 ). Thank you for these beautiful words and wishes. I think there are times, while blogging, that I waited on the world to validate me. While all along my dear friends here were validating me the entire time. I will see you ‘around’. Thank you again, so very much, for being here with me.
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I hope you are well. ❤
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I am OB, I promise. ❤️ and thank you.
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I read this post (as has been my habit since December of 2017) right after discovering it amidst my inbox on Wednesday. Knowing how the Little Mister, Benjamin, adores the “Chatterbox”…I decided to wait to reply until after his visit this weekend.
Yesterday, Benjamin read the entire post aloud with minimal assistance and some brief explanations by me. We talked about the framed print of your 2017 Christmas Tree with Grampy’s ornament that hangs in his bedroom. We talked about several other prints of your art and wisdom that are treasured by us too. We then talked about what we wanted to write to you. “Good-bye” was not one of them, but “Thank You” most certainly was needed. You may remember me as being quotatious prior to becoming a silent follower, therefore I chose this :
“Giving can be as simple as SAYing
‘THANK YOU’ to someone and meaning it.
We should all give a little MORE.” – Simon Sinek.
Benjamin has been learning the fine art of quotatiousness for several years now. He chose a favorite of his that was memorized last New Year’s Eve :
“Expect the best,
plan for the worst,
and prepare to be surprised.” – Denis Watley.
The splendiferous gifts that we have received through your blog will never be forgotten and we sincerely thank-YOU! We’ll not say Good-bye but rather…until we meet again!!
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Dear Benjamin and Ellen, I have come here several times to write a reply and just can’t find the words to adequately reply. To learn from you, I will reply with ‘thank you’. You have gifted me a sense of gratitude for you and Benjamin’s kindness and support. Until we meet again ❤
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Benjamin & I were betwixt tears and smiles whilst discussing the legacy of the “Chatterbox” (known to most as the Chatter Master). We had to work on a compromise of what would be included in our reply in order to control both my well known Propensity for Loquacity and his rapidly growing one. Your lovely response to our endeavor will be saved and shared with Benjamin on his next visit. Since Benjamin was a wee toddler we have repeated some words every single time we part. He had wanted to include them and given that we limited ourselves to one quotation each…I did not. For Benjamin, I do so now : “I love you to the moon and back, to infinity and beyond, and I miss you already!” And once is never enough, so THANK YOU again!!
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Benjamin and Ellen, your always thoughtful and emotional support has been (and will be) appreciated. ❤ To the moon and back.
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Though I have been absent for most of this year, I have always enjoyed your blog. Perhaps, if you keep it alive I can enjoy it in retrospect.
When I started blogging, I had no idea where it would lead me…thus formed my blog title, not a unique name but a fitting one. I just knew that something inside of mean needed to communicate in the form of writing.
What I discovered was a world of beautiful people. So much negativity is spread through the media that one can get the idea that all is lost…gloom and doom abound…which simply is not true.
I’m glad you found growth and connection along the way. Enjoy your next adventure. If by chance you miss us all…come back and visit.
And so you know, you are very good at saying a lot in just a few words. Farewell…for now!
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Thank you Mrs. P. I appreciate your kindness and introspect. Like you I have found an incredible community here. In the over 4600 blogs I have posted I had one negative comment. In that regard it wasn’t even ‘about’ me but something I had written. The people here have proven time and again that positivity, compassion and thoughtful contemplation are still alive and well. I will be leaving my blog up. I do hope you enjoy it. Thank you, again, for being here.
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I marvel at how much time goes into your daily blogging, Colleen, and I have to admit there’s a comfort in find you here. You have a lot to share, and you have. Blessings to you as you move ahead in all the ways that nourish you and add to your family time. ❤️
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Thank you very much Debra ❤️. Blessings to you and yours, ALL of yours! 🙂
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I have loved reading your words. But you share hear about blogging, developing yourself as a writer, learning to identify as a writer, and the beauty of community, are all things I relate to. Any ending it’s also a beginning. Keep on sparkling.❤️☮️
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Thank you Ali. I love the idea of being sparkly! 🎇
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DIS-like!!!!!! What?!?!?!?!! WHAT?!?!?!?!?!? NOOOOOO! NO, I say! You’re not allowed to leave!!! How dare you, CM, nooooooooo!!!!!!!!! Don’t leave me!! But, but, the cabin, the TKD, the the sitting at your feet soaking up wisdom! I’m so sad right now. And also, for once, this feels more appropriate than funny: 😡
Of course I respect your decision and want you to be happy above all else, but, but… crying face crying face crying face. (I really gotta start using my phone for blog commenting.)
It’s kind of you to let us know however. Still
😦 😦
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All of the feels PIF. All of them. I’m not leaving …. exactly. Just not writing the blog. Who knows. Maybe some day it will be resurrected in some fashion. I appreciate the 😡 and the ‘crying face crying face crying face’ (though I did laugh because you had to write it out). I have struggled (for lack of a better word) with this for so very long. I’m still here. Will still be reading blogs. And you know where I am. 🙂
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Yes, I know where to find you. In the cabin, with tea, and a soft rug for me to sit on. Still sad. I literally cried a little. Felt like you were dying. Yes, I know I was being a little over dramatic (or a lot) and childish, but I didn’t care! You could have warned me, softened the blow. Kind of you to let us know, though. I know we’ve talked about how sad it is when bloggers just disappear. But you’ve been around possibly the longest of my blog buddies. It’s just not going to be the same without you.
I’ll get over it. Eventually. 🙂
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I can’t tell you what your words mean to me PIF. Everyone’s words. I do miss it. But I am working on other writing projects so I am enjoying that. And you are NOT being dramatic you are being perfectly matic. You don’t have to get over it. But you don’t have to miss me either 😉
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“Perfectly matic.” Ha! Awww. Okay, I’ll try not to miss you. And hope that I won’t. Too much. If you’re still around. Having more time to write sounds wonderful. I wish I had that too. Many times I’ve thought that if I had to give something up, it would probably be blogging, but then… but then… my friends! So I understand your consternation when making this decision, and I’m confident you will do marvelous beautiful work without the blog distraction.
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Such a difficult decision PIF. And literally when I sat down to do my blog that day I thought, no, I just need to stop. It was THAT quick of a decision. I have been writing. And I’m telling myself to take time writing. I don’t need to meet any self imposed deadlines. But still, it IS hard. 🙂
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I’m glad for you that in the end, the decision came quickly and with certainty. Hubby wants me to not return to Jiu-Jitsu at all, so now I have a hard decision of my own to make. Do I really not go back?! Especially when I was so close to completion of the first level? He and I will have more conversations on this, I’m sure.
Writing is definitely hard. I remember hearing about one man who literally had family members tie him to his desk chair. (I forget who that was. Someone famous.) Do you have a special time set aside for it? I can’t say that I was ever good at making a routine, but I know it’s helpful for others.
So happy to see you still commenting on here, CM. 🙂 No one else calls me PIF. I’ll miss being called PIF, because it only comes from you.
Anyone else who attempted it would need to be stamped out immediately for the imposter and charlatan that they are!
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I will always call you PIF. Even at the cabin. 🙂
Oh I do understand the Jiu-Jitsu decision PIF. I wish I could give you some words that would help. I struggled with that for so very long. There’s nothing easy about that decision.
Writing, I don’t have a designated time but I write ALL the time. Or create something. If I’m sitting still I feel like I should be writing or doodling. It’s a good feeling to have, for me anyway. I had started the blog to help me figure out where to go with my writing. But truthfully I think WP made things so difficult to move forward. I could write MANY blogs about that! 😂
And I am honored and humbled by your loyalty! Let’s not tolerate any other PIF callers. 😉
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Hi Colleen – I’m sorry to read this because I have always found your posts to be at the top in quality and thought. But I totally understand. You’ve been blogging a long time and it is very time consuming. As I approach 10 years, I know and I have also developed other interests over time. I hope we will still be able to find you on Instagram or out there in other formats – I so enjoy your sketches, because they are way more than that. But I will look for you and anything new you write. You have always made me think and have inspired me to be a better person. Take care and wishing you all the success – you deserve it! -Barb
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Barb, thank you! for these kind and understanding words. For your support and your wonderful place of encouragement and highlighting of books and writers. I am still on instagram. Posting old stuff and new stuff as I enjoy creating it. I will still be ‘around’ here. I can’t cut this cord. 🙂
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Oh dear wise one, I understand your decision completely. I have been busy myself but feel grateful that I can go back and read some of the post I missed and I got to catch up on a little and enjoyed all your beautiful drawings and sayings. I am happy for you. You are a wonderful woman and a talented one indeed. I will still get around to reading your second book about the cabin as the Yellow Door was such a treat to read with my husband. I have no doubt we will hear of you again. I have been very busy and have been working on something myself. Blogging on three venues can be exhausting when you are trying to write. Some days I have nothing to other, days I have there simply are other things I must do. It has been my great privilege to read your beautiful book, words and enjoy your loving drawings. You are very talented. I am guessing you touched many more lives than you realized. I want to thank you for every post I read and all the love and wisdom you spread out there. I pray that God will bless you and keep you and your family in his blessed hands. With love, admiration and great respect my wise friend, thank you! Joni
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Joni, thank you for all of the love and support. I have appreciated every word of it. You have lifted me up, so often, and I want you to know how much I needed that. I wish you wellness, happiness and love. And continued success with your stunning writing!
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